When I first stepped into Reiki in 2020, it wasn’t just an interest, it was a calling. After being laid off from my corporate job during the pandemic, something inside me stirred so strongly that I knew, without a shadow of a doubt, energy healing was part of my oath in this lifetime. I felt compelled to follow it, and to devote myself to it, as though it had been waiting for me all along.
During my first attunement, my Reiki master explained that each level of training clears your channel, but that it is our daily responsibility to continue that clearing ourselves if we wish to be vessels of true medicine. She reminded us that the more trauma a person carries, the more time and devotion it takes to purify their channel before offering healing to others.
That wisdom stayed with me. It shaped the way I approached my own path; slowly and intentionally, never rushing to hold myself out as something I wasn’t ready to be.
My Initiation
My Reiki training was not quick. It took me three years to reach Reiki Master level, because my life and my body had their own plans. In 2021, my nervous system collapsed as years of repressed trauma surfaced at once. It was public, painful, and it left me terrified of continuing my Reiki studies. I stepped away for a year, unsure if I would ever return.
Looking back, I now see that collapse as part of my initiation. I had already been walking the trauma-healing path for a few years before Reiki, but that unraveling was the purification my body and soul needed. It was not just a breakdown, it was a breaking open.
In 2022, I finally found the courage to return and complete my training. And while I hold the title of Reiki Master, I don’t claim to be a master of anything. I am a lifelong student. The only reason becoming a “Master” mattered to me was so that I could attune others, giving them the ability to take their own healing into their hands. Because from the very beginning, that has always been my mission, to empower others to ignite their inner healer.
The Path That Led me to God
Around the same time I was studying Reiki, another door opened. One day in 2020, a mantra song from the Bhakti Yoga tradition appeared randomly on my Spotify playlist. I didn’t know the words, but I felt compelled to sing along. Something about it felt like a soul-remembrance as though I had sung those sounds lifetimes ago. What I quickly discovered was that chanting mantras wasn’t just devotional, it was incredibly healing. It became one of the most powerful ways I found to clear my own energy. Unlike sound healing where the frequencies move around you, mantra moves through you vibrating through the channels of the body, breaking blockages, and restoring flow. Through this practice, my throat chakra which had been blocked for years finally opened. Singing mantras became more than music for me; it became a daily devotional practice, a way of aligning my body, mind, and spirit with the Divine.
From there, I was led into Kundalini practices, breath-work, and sacred traditions that stretched me open in ways I could never have anticipated. Each practice revealed another layer of what it means to be a vessel, not of performance, but of surrender. And through all of it, I discovered that the path wasn’t taking me away from God, it was leading me to God.
Every mantra, every practice, every unraveling was preparing me to encounter Christ in a way I never had before. Over time, all roads led me to a deep devotion to God, to the light of Christ, and to the Holy Spirit as the ultimate source of healing.
Discernment in the Healing Space
This is why discernment matters so much to me now. Energy exchange is real. When you receive healing from someone, you’re not just experiencing their technique, you’re receiving from their channel, their nervous system, their level of integration (or lack of it).
Many people love the image of being a healer, but few are truly walking their talk. Some have not done the deep clearing work on themselves, and yet they are offering “energy work” to others. That residue, those unprocessed wounds, can move through their channel. And that is not safe.
I personally do not allow just anyone to “do healing” on me. Not because I don’t believe in support, but because I don’t know what they are carrying, what they are channeling, or what’s attached to them. Healing is sacred. It requires responsibility, humility, and purity of intent.
Why I No Longer Work With “Universal Energy”
Reiki introduced me to discipline, to devotion, and to the necessity of clearing my own channel. But over time, I came to a deeper realization, I no longer align with channeling “universal life force energy.”
Why? Because the source of that energy is undefined. “Universal” can mean many things, and trust me when I say this, in the unseen realm, not everything is of the light. I do not take chances with what I allow to move through me, nor with what I offer to others.
The only source I trust, the only source I channel, is God, the Holy Spirit. Always.
This distinction matters. It is not about condemning others; it is about clarity, integrity, and spiritual safety. My work now is not about pulling from a vague universal stream. It is about becoming a vessel for the Spirit of Truth. Anchored in the Most High, I know what flows through me is love, healing, and light that cannot be corrupted.
Empowering the Inner Healer
And so, my mission remains the same, only now it carries a deeper devotion: to empower others to remember that healing is intrinsic. We are all our own healers. Yes, we can look to others for guidance, wisdom, and inspiration, but no one else can “fix” us.
At best, a true healer reminds you of your own power, your own capacity, your own connection to God. They don’t make you dependent on them. They point you back to yourself and to the Source.
That is the heart of Hera Jewels, too. Every piece I create is more than adornment, it is a talisman, a reminder of your resilience, your inner healer, and the Spirit that already lives within you.
To those walking the path of healing, whether as practitioners or as seekers: use discernment. Not everyone who wears the title of healer is a clear channel. Ask where their source comes from. Feel into whether their life reflects what they offer.
And above all, trust yourself. Trust God. Trust the Spirit that already lives within you. Because the most powerful healer you will ever meet is the one you carry inside.
With love,
Saddaf