I just felt like sharing my heart tonight.
For those who have been following me from the beginning, you know how raw and painful my healing journey has been. I’ve always promised to share my process in real time, the light and the dark, because healing isn’t linear and it certainly isn’t glamorous.
If I’ve seemed a little quiet lately, it’s because I’ve been moving through another challenging season. At times, it has felt like I was living in a twilight zone, accused of things that are the farthest thing from truth. But those who know me, truly know me, have witnessed my journey with their own eyes. They’ve seen not only what I’ve walked through over the last decade, but how every single step has shaped both me and my work.
When I first stepped onto the healing path years ago, I thought my purpose was to offer energy work to others. As some of you might remember, in 2020, Reiki came into my life with a potency I couldn’t have imagined. It cracked me open, pulled me deeper into my own shadows, and brought me face to face with wounds I didn’t even know I was carrying. The truth is, it didn’t go the way my ego had planned. In 2021, my nervous system collapsed publicly and painfully, as many of you witnessed. It was not the polished picture of a healer I thought I was supposed to be. It was the raw unraveling of someone being stripped of everything false so that truth could emerge.
The years that followed were not easy. They were marked by dark night after dark night of the soul, ego death after ego death. But they were also sacred years of integration. Instead of rushing to teach or perform healing for others, I chose to walk the harder path, to turn inward, to face my own pain, and to let the medicine work on me first.
And in the ashes of that unraveling, something unexpected was born, Hera Jewels.
What began as a creative outlet became my altar of alchemy. I poured my grief, my resilience, and my prayers into every piece I designed. The pearls, stones, and symbols I work with aren’t just materials, they’re carriers of intention, energy, and story. Hera Jewels became a way for me to share my healing in tangible form, while honoring the truth that I was still very much in process.
This is why I say my brand is personal. It isn’t borrowed, and it isn’t imitation. It is born of my lived experience; the breakdowns, the breakthroughs, and the courage to keep walking. As I have healed and evolved, so has my line. And while the vision has always been there, I’ve learned that in order to walk into it fully, everything in my life had to fall apart first. Had I known what it would demand of me, I might not have chosen it, but I have no regrets. Because in order to be a true vessel of healing in this world, you have to be emptied of everything that isn’t aligned with love, compassion, and forgiveness.
Along the way, I’ve learned that we are not defined by our falls, but by how we rise. And while there have been moments where others have tried to shake my foundation, make me feel small, or take my voice away, it has only anchored me deeper in my truth. I know now, more than ever, that I am in service to God and in service to love. That is the foundation I stand on, and no one can take that away.
For years I’ve been asking myself how to weave together jewelry and healing in a way that feels authentic. Back in 2020, I even started a started a website called ‘Heal Intrinsic’,
[side-note: for those of you who remember lol; I’m glad it didn’t stick because I never really loved that name, and it gave me 5 years to come up with something so beautifully aligned. Stay tuned…TBA! 🥰]
….because I had already realized that true healing is not something we outsource, it is intrinsic, it lives inside each of us. But spirit had other plans for me, and that vision has since evolved, but the mission has always been the same, to remind people that we all carry the tools for our own healing. We can look to others for guidance, wisdom, and support, but ultimately we are our own healers. The guru is within. My vision for Hera Jewels has always been to create more than adornment, to create talismans that empower you to ignite your inner healer, to trust yourself, and to rise with grace.
In a world that rewards performance and surface-level spirituality, I’ve chosen a different road. A true healer doesn’t bypass their own wounds. They walk through them, again and again, until they are refined into wisdom. I am not in a rush to prove myself or to seek validation. My path is slower, but it is sovereign.
And if there is one thing my journey has taught me, it’s this, what is real cannot be taken. The light of the Holy Spirit has carried me through every dark night, and it continues to guide me now. My only commitment is to truth, to integrity, and to love.
So while I don’t always know where this path is leading, I trust it. I trust the timing, I trust the lessons, and I trust that nothing I’ve walked through has been wasted. Hera Jewels will continue to be an extension of that trust, jewelry not just for adornment, but for remembrance, protection, and the courage to walk your own path with grace.
If you’d like to read more about the direction I’m moving in as this journey continues to unfold, I invite you to check out my recent feature with Bold Journey. You can find the link through my Instagram bio.🪬
Thank you for walking with me.
Always with Love,
Saddaf